I honestly think I have problems. Never with you but with everything else. In the city my happiness is extremely limited. Is yours? You never make it seem that way. I'd sure as hell love to move but there are two problems. You'll probably stay here, and the deadlines for out of state colleges flew right by my head. It looks like you have decisions, and things to directly figure out. I can't get myself up to feeling like that although my acceptance to two colleges may vary, i'm still gambling so that's probably why. I am good at what I do, getting into college will make me even better whilst you show no doubts, which I admit jealousy of..
Down south the air is clear and clean, I COULD breathe so much happier and WOULD be so much happier with you. Everything here is congested and tight, consistent denim, gigantic glasses and hats hovering over people's heads whilst those occasional ridicules of my fit jeans. It's ridiculous sometimes, the city. Don't get me wrong the south is never exactly a safe haven for a northern african american but the overall hospitality down there people can have is out of good faith. The city especially places like New York can be pretty unaccommodating, you could be walking down the street bump someone on accident ~ "Hey watch your ass." You'd be the one keeping me from doing something stupid. You'd be the one to remind me it's not all that bad.
You help me in more ways than you think by just being there, but there's only one thing that stops me from loving you. You love people that love the way you look. You like the things they think they like in return. You feed the essence and definition of fake and to be honest, I would never want to get to know you because you don't even know who you are. I may have problems but its nothing the truth can't unmask and control, which goes for the both of us. You get all over the place in this train of thought, you think the truth is ugly, negative, and disturbs your sleep. What you don't know is that it wakes us up, but since you've never appeared to be the wake-up call type i'll leave you to continue sleeping.
